Purposes.

I woke up at 0630HRS today.
Local time.

As I was still lying in bed.
I opened my eyes.
Blur.

I couldn't think of nothing.
Just staring long enough at the ceiling.
Watching the ceiling fan rotating over and over.
Pointless.

That act reflected myself.
As if life is pointless.
No purpose.

I once had a purpose; a very strong one.
When I planned each and everything to do in the morning.
And most importantly, make it done by the day ends.
But not today.

It seems like nothing is to be accomplished.
Nothing to be thought of. As if life is pointless.

I miss those days when I made myself better and better each day.
I miss those days when I did the best; at least I thought it was.
I miss those days when the sky wasn't as cloudy as it is now.

Cloudy. Gloomy. A depressing weather.
Those dark grey clouds seems like taking forever to pass.
Where has the sun gone to? Where are you hiding?
What  are you hiding from?

It's failing. One by one.
Each step forward I take, there's always something pushing me back.

I need that purpose back.
This time, a purpose to stand back again.

I need that purpose back.
I need a purpose back.
I just need some purpose.

Hoo-raa.

Fight fire with fire.

They always say, don't fight fire with fire.
No, no. Water surely can't fight fire.
Eventually it will boil and vaporize.

You see, water will never win over fire.
Even when it is calm.
Because water, vaporizes. Fire, grows.

Then tell me, how to put the fire out?
Yes, I did play with fire.
Yes, I know I've shouldn't play with that fire.
Yes, I know, my bad.

And that's not the point.
I just want that fire to stop.

Hoo-raa.

Companion.

I cherish your companion, my girl.
Such a lovely cat. Always there, and always will.

Hoo-raa.

Escape.

The world is always cold. Cloudy and gloomy.
Well, hello cold world.
I'm going to Venus, where its closer to the sun.

Hoo-raa.

S I R I U S.

Disebabkan aku ialah pelajar masters yang membuta tuli membuat keputusan, aku mempunyai masa terluang yang teramat banyak.
(read: TerAMAT banyak)

Jadi, untuk menghilangkan perasaan bosan, aku membuka semula entri post yang lepas.
Wow, I just can't believe I once wrote my opinions like that.
And somehow, I think it made much more sense dulu dari sekarang.
Mengarut, yes. But at least orang faham.

Damn it. Is it me who is getting old or the world is just too young and immature?
Argh, I need to stop being too serious. It's going to kill me soon.

Oke, back to the old George please?
I should stop facebook-ing and start back writing.

So old brother George, to thy I give my soul.
*efek asap dan sound effects sangat penting dalam pembinaan ayat tersebut*

Hoo-raa.

Yellow.

Yes, you once dedicated this when we were still friends.
And again, after things got serious between us.

Somehow, a lot has changed yet some still remains.
Like how I feel of you.
Sometimes it might be hard.
But for you I'd bleed myself dry.
Yes, I'd bleed myself dry.

Hoo-raa.

Shouldn't be so complicated.

If I need some other love.
Give me more than I can stand.
And when my smile gets old and faded, wait around I'll smile again.

Hoo-raa.